mirror of past

Shreya Ghoshal songs gives me a sense of happiness and assured bonding when m lone. The songs from Chamku, Ankahee and many more simply sooth in slowly healing mine emmotions and comforting my soul when I am in deep trouble. I am flattered by her soft which speaks to me taking care if mine and granting me a ray of hope of not to be worried as everthing would be fine.Sometimes a glimpse of past does open the gates of the uncontrolled emmotions,especially while revisiting the soothing moments of past which were my only friends then. Ironically the "limited friend circle" of mine(while I was in school till 10th) consisted of my soul, moments in television which made me happy, the extints of the wonderful interaction that I had with some of the wonderful creatures in this earth(i really donno how to thank them). Perhaps they will remain to be my hero forever. As Shreya goes on singing "Kal ki kisko khabar hai,bas is lamhe ko mujhe toh hai jeena..tera kaisa asar hai,tere bina toh lage dil kahe na", the lines run into my blood(but i always take tesion thinking of tomorrow). I want to meet myself when I was kid and used to be constantly bogged down by this earth saying that this "donkey" would land up nowhere in future and they used to hurt the soul a lot. Yes, I learnt this lession from life that you do not necessarily get the smart fate always if you are smart in life initially in childhood. Perhaps the pain inflicted by the world had magnified my vision of observing the daily "bhaag daud" of life more closely. You grow old to miss those moments of life which you cherished in the past. It would be great if god could gimme a chance to visit the bypasser of my journey during my childhood days. I know that all of them must have been too old to forget me:), but I would be happy to meet them once. Perhaps the mirror of my past will still be lost and I will be on the pursuit of it.