Little drops of hope never trickle down

My results in have already exceeded my expectations(i.e. shocked me) and put me in the backbenchers category.  Today, I will get an opportunity to confront the test.  Ironically I am least concerned about the exam in which I am expected to do well to hang on to the course(pump myself from bottom to atleast median position, in order to assure my promotion to next term). To be honest, I am shit scared. Assuring world that him/her self is not scared of situation has turned into a normal routine for all the existent organisms, after each individual learns of the fact that sharing the problem actually does not add any relief to the scenario. Worse, it can result in blunder. It’s a lifelong mantra to assure self that there is no way out except facing the consequences.

Let me divert from the topic and take off the burden. Everytime I hit to the food court at manipal and taste the delicious chicken tikka of Hangyo Saiba food outlet, my taste bud rejoice and cherish the spicy grilled chickens.

Coming back to the topic, I do agree now that silence is a proxy for worrisome point. Pick out any person who’s silent, it goes by default that the person is battling out a big hurdle. But unfortunately we humans have ourselves to entertain self. People say that there exist a healer who takes away the problem from you. Some see the healer in form of god and some in form of humans. Those who acknowledge the gravity of passing time believe that such healers cease to exist in world. All these are a hypothetical thought that is bubbled up to make one feel good. Yes, feel good. One can feel good by puffing a stack of cigarettes, drinking vodka, lending ears to music and performing many other activities. We term these activities as ‘distracters’ which engages us in an addictive task. Say for example you like a track and are addicted to it. What follows next are a juxtaposed frames of de-ja-vu moments where you keep on playing the same track again.

It would be bearish of me to say that even today I feel that my academic position is under jeopardy. I have slowly realized my interest in life and hope that I ultimately get in there. Waiting for an opportunity is considered ‘illogical’ in today’s world. Do we have solution for such aspirators who chose to deviate from their interest because they need to had patience and each ticking second asks money from them? I don’t think we can do anything now, but I want to do some thing for such individuals. May be provide such individuals(whose interest area might not fetch enough money) with finance. Can I? The answer would be obvious in a very short span of time.